the cross

so i think its interesting that we use as the symbol of christianity is the thing that we shun the most. its the cross, and its symbolizes our death to ourselves, yet whats the one thing that we never do? surrender to Jesus, we just do it our own way all the time and do what we want to, instead of obeying. just a random thought i had.

things are going well with me. better than previously. good times with Jesus and the way different things are going in life. so thats nice. really nothing new to talk about. so i'll cut it off short. have a good week yall. here's your quote:

"But Moses said to the people, 'Do not fear! Stand by and see the salvation of the LORD which He will accomplish for you today; for the Egyptians whom you have seen today, you will never see them again forever. The LORD will fight for you while you keep silent."'
exodus 14:13-14

another day

haven't posted in about 9 days, so i'll throw some stuff down. had three tests last week so i was busy. but here goes...

good week. it continues to get better for me. God continues to remind me of stuff that i need to be doing/remembering. so thats nice. and i know that i will continue to grow closer with Him, the more time goes on. and its also helping my relationships. def glad that some of those are looking much better. wink, wink. you make me happy. love kickin it with my g5ers. good times. so, watched equilbrium last night. interesting movie. it displays the problem with doing everything with emotion and feelings but also talks about how restrain is necessary. good message actually. and the same is true with Christianity too. you can't do it without emotion or feelings. it isn't based on that, but it is still a part. joy, sorrow, satisfaction, peace, love (even though this is much more than a feeling) and hope, which is also a feeling, though also more than. but i really was glad it was just a decent movie. and i didn't think about this a lot, i just enjoyed it.

went home this weekend. it was relaxing. got my baby, whoooooop!!!! and there was much rejoicing. got a new ipod to fix the last one. all my teams won, except the yankees. but they will tonight. on the other hand, go stros. whoop. so i know that i watch too much sports and i'll def be trying to cut it back. but not today, cause i'm skipping stat to watch the yankees. lol. such a terrible thing to say, but really i will i promise. gotta keep my focus on Jesus. so i'll do that before gametime cause i want to spend time with my Savior. not because i have to. always good to remember that too. otherwise just hung with the folks and then watched the game at leahs. whoop for aggie football. dare i say, 7-1 atm vs 8-0 ou and college game day???????????????? you heard it here first. lol. good times at home. love my folks.

also, if yall could be praying for me, i'm considering a very interesting thing for the future. and i don't know. sorry it will no more specific than that. maybe later. i don't know if thats what the LORD wants or what. many things will have to be looked at. crazy stuff though.

loving the new upstream group. def tite. loved our guys time on sunday nights. going to be looking forward to it. and thursday have been good too, fo sho. hopefully sats bbq will work out well. that'd be sweet.

anyways, think thats it. still in 1 john. loving it. hopefully i will grow and learn how to love people and show God's love in all i do. sometimes i look at myself and just get upset about how i'm not perfect, but i always realize that its about His face and seeking Him. and letting Him meet me where i am. thanks char for that. i will just continue to seek Him and be like Him. continue to grow in self-discipline. such is my life. loving it fo sho, like mcdonalds. lol. heres your quote, short this time, i promise.

"but i being poor, have only my dreams;
i have spread my dreams under your feet;
tread softly, for you tread on my dreams."

wb yeats

another day

haven't posted in about 9 days, so i'll throw some stuff down. had three tests last week so i was busy. but here goes...

good week. it continues to get better for me. God continues to remind me of stuff that i need to be doing/remembering. so thats nice. and i know that i will continue to grow closer with Him, the more time goes on. and its also helping my relationships. def glad that some of those are looking much better. wink, wink. you make me happy. love kickin it with my g5ers. good times. so, watched equilbrium last night. interesting movie. it displays the problem with doing everything with emotion and feelings but also talks about how restrain is necessary. good message actually. and the same is true with Christianity too. you can't do it without emotion or feelings. it isn't based on that, but it is still a part. joy, sorrow, satisfaction, peace, love (even though this is much more than a feeling) and hope, which is also a feeling, though also more than. but i really was glad it was just a decent movie. and i didn't think about this a lot, i just enjoyed it.

went home this weekend. it was relaxing. got my baby, whoooooop!!!! and there was much rejoicing. got a new ipod to fix the last one. all my teams won, except the yankees. but they will tonight. on the other hand, go stros. whoop. so i know that i watch too much sports and i'll def be trying to cut it back. but not today, cause i'm skipping stat to watch the yankees. lol. such a terrible thing to say, but really i will i promise. gotta keep my focus on Jesus. so i'll do that before gametime cause i want to spend time with my Savior. not because i have to. always good to remember that too. otherwise just hung with the folks and then watched the game at leahs. whoop for aggie football. dare i say, 7-1 atm vs 8-0 ou and college game day???????????????? you heard it here first. lol. good times at home. love my folks.

also, if yall could be praying for me, i'm considering a very interesting thing for the future. and i don't know. sorry it will no more specific than that. maybe later. i don't know if thats what the LORD wants or what. many things will have to be looked at. crazy stuff though.

loving the new upstream group. def tite. loved our guys time on sunday nights. going to be looking forward to it. and thursday have been good too, fo sho. hopefully sats bbq will work out well. that'd be sweet.

anyways, think thats it. still in 1 john. loving it. hopefully i will grow and learn how to love people and show God's love in all i do. sometimes i look at myself and just get upset about how i'm not perfect, but i always realize that its about His face and seeking Him. and letting Him meet me where i am. thanks char for that. i will just continue to seek Him and be like Him. continue to grow in self-discipline. such is my life. loving it fo sho, like mcdonalds. lol. heres your quote, short this time, i promise.

"but i being poor, have only my dreams;
i have spread my dreams under your feet;
tread softly, for you tread on my dreams."

wb yeats

why are rock songs so depressing?

so, what to write about. hummmmmmmmmmm. i think i'm going to break up with my ipod cause its not working on my comp. stupid technology. whatever. i'll make it work. yeesh. at least it still charges. but i'm organizing my music and have new stuff and my comp won't read that its connected. lame. but whatev. good to hang with g5 for the game. good times. yall make me happy. i dunno. what to say? i lead a boring existence sometimes. so busy i miss the fun random times. bummer it is. still want to be more disciplined with my time. def work on that one. and yay for talking to char tonight. also makes me happy. yay for going home next week and picking up my baby. i love it. we def be rollin that next week. yeah, what? glad our kiddos loved the scavenger hunt. good times. it was a lot of fun to make and look at the pics when it was over. hardcore yall. i like it.

good times from 1 john this week. you should all read it, especially ch 3. amazing. nuff said. def got my focus back on seeking the LORD this week instead of just doing the time. all about focus. don't have it back like i'd like it now. but God will be getting me through. fo sho. good to remember that He is good, all the time. thanks for the reminder, wink.

so, i was listening to some of my new downloads. and man, most rock songs are just as depressing as country. this is disturbing. i have my nice list of songs that i listen to when i'm depressed. some story of the year, lost prophets, matchbook romance, rock kills kid, simple plan, nickelback, 3 doors down. but its all so sad. bah. i need more happy rock. i like happy rock. but heres your lyric from matchbook romance. and yes leah, i really won't cry to hard if you don't read it. wink, wink. lol. just kidding, here goes.

Promise by Matchbook Romance

What would you say if I asked you not to go
To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
Would you take my hand and never let me go
Promise me you'll never let me go

And now the stars aren't out tonight,
But neither are we to look up at them
Why does hello feel like goodbye?
These memories can't replace,
These wishes I wished and dreams I chased
Take this broken heart and make it right

I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know,
You're not making this easy

I never thought I'd be the one to say
Please don't, well please don't leave me

I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know,You're not making this easy

You're not making this easy (easy, easy, easy...)

Take my hand and never let me go,
Take my hand and never let me go,
Promise me...You'll never let go
You'll never let go
You'll never let go
You'll never let go

Make this last foreverI feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know, you're not making this easy
You're not making this easy
You're not making this easy
You're not making this easy
You're not making this easy

I'll fall asleep tonight, 'cause that brings me closer to you

def sad enough for yah, peace

so why post at 420am?

so, here i am. posting at 420 in the am. i haven't slept yet and i have to drive at six. which means shower at 5 and leave at 530. yay for first shifts. blah. don't really know what to write about. things are going better with me. thanks to kayla for going with me to dennys til like 4 and telling me what i needed to hear. and to mich for getting things more squared away. def a good thing. so i really have nothing to say at all asiding from all that. except that i need to stop drinking coffee. that'd def be a good thing. can't wait to go home on the 15th. whoop! first time since july. that will be nice. get to hang with the fam. so yay for that. go astros. and yes i will be skipping statistics to watch wednesday's game. whoop for that as well. and yes, it is a better use of my time than class, cause that class is worthless. time with Jesus hasn't been so good the last like 4 days, so hopefully that will change. i def need it to. but He is faithful even when we are faithless because He can't deny Himself. yay 2 tim 2. but i know that now i can focus again because what was unresolved has now been taken care of, at least to start. it will take much more work but i will def be doing it. takin it slow, but still progressing forward. rough times it will prolly be, but def good times. well, i think thats enough about me for now. here's your quote. its from a song by extol. shout out to shannon for having this in her profile. i hope you learn from it.


Artist: Extol Lyrics
Album: Burial Lyrics
Song: Reflections Of A Broken Soul Lyrics

I fooled myself again
Trusting an illusion
Of what I thought to be
Never ceasing love
I burned myself again
Leaving scars that never heal
Becoming cynical
To this thing called love

Look into my mind
Fragments of what I desired
In this state I cry
Father please won't you show me
Show me how
To stop it now
Cleanse my mind
Help me find
Love

My soul is an open wound
Filled with salt of sadness
Was this my destiny
To be left alone
I nurse my misery
Leave no room for anyone
Still I am cynical
To this thing called love

A pale reflection
Of a broken soul
Slips through these eyes
Full of tears
Emotional blackout

I cannot trust my own feelings
My sorrow eats me up inside
Learn from mistakes
See what it takes
My feelings fail
Your love remains