ahhh, olympics day

Artist:
Third Day Lyrics
Album:
Offerings: A Worship Album Lyrics
Song:
King Of Glory Lyrics

Who is this King of Glory that persues me with his love
And haunts me with each hearing of His softly spoken words
My conscience, a reminder of forgiveness that I need
Who is this King of Glory who offers it to me

Who is this King of angels, O blessed Prince of Peace
Revealing things of Heaven and all its mysteries
My spirit¹s ever longing for His grace in which to stand
Who's this King of glory, Son of God and son of man

His name is Jesus, precious Jesus
The Lord Almighty, the King of my heart
The King of glory

Who is this King of Glory with strength and majesty
And wisdom beyond measure, the graceous King of kings
the Lord of Earth and Heaven, the Creator of all things
Who is this King of Glory, He's everything to me

The Lord of Earth and Heaven, the Creator of all things
He is the King of glory, He's everything to me

yay being social

so, this week before school has presented me with a problem. i have too many people to hang out with. this is not so good sometimes. and i have to leave people hanging and it is not so cool. i'm not the fan of it. so i'm sorry for the folks whos events i've missed. really, i wish i could have been there. like, take today for example. i hung with my basic group, then future upstream leaders and then my old skool upstream group number 1. whoop!!!!!!! this is insane. and i've kinda been missing the one on one time with folks that i like so much. its def a bummer. but now that schools about to start that means i get to eat lunch with folks, whoop! so you all better be ready to eat. 'specially all you on campus people, you got extra meal plans, i got a stomach. bring it on. especially tres and mark, fat kids. but i'll def be callin folks for lunch.

and yes, i have an ipod. and yes, its a fun toy. and yes i don't have a firewire to usb2.0 converter cable cause everywhere is sold out of them. bah. junk. but i will soon. oh i will. and i'm still converting all my wma files to mp3. urrrrr. oh well, i have an ipod. and its great. thanks johnson. i appreciate it. anyways, that enough. finally a short post. for aaron and you other lazy folks who don't like to read long things. j/k aaron. oh, and shout out to johnson for bringing back my airsoft guns. whoop, thats all i can say. lol. whoop. so, the lyric/quote for the day.

"its like i'm watching a dream that i can never wake up from." Spike Spiegel, Cowboy Bebop

early morning sayings

so, its now 211am, which for me isn't so late, but should make for an interesting post none the less. cause the title of my blog will make more senese now. shout out for my friend mich who i talked to online til like 3am. you made me so happy. it really made my day. thanks also to char char for being the first person to comment on my blog and of course, same to carol browning, for getting me to start this crazy thing anyways. and now i have a great new toy to play with, and something to spend my time on. w00t. great word to by the way, i like using it again. oh, and everyone should go to this site and buy this cd and every other one from one the great christian rock bands. its the new pillar cd. got it tonight, whoop! its awesome of course.

http://www.pillarmusic.com/


so, here's what i'm thinking. and this is going to raise some eyebrows possibly. i'm sick of wasting my time in college hanging out with christian people and not doing anything worthwhile. cause all we ever do is waste time and never talk about anything. we make a big deal about our "freedom" to entertain ourselves. i don't think that this is a biblical concept. cause unless i missed it, our lives aren't our own and that we are called to serve and obey our God. and i know that someone will bring up the point of being able to enjoy God's creation. and i'm not against that idea but i don't know if we enjoy God's creation in the right way in entertaining ourselves. and plus, we do it way more often that serving or preaching the gospel, which ain't right. i also think that we should aim for pleasing God. too often we settle for saying, "but i'm not sinning by what i'm doing." which may be technically true, but are you really doing anything for the kingdom? and yes, i am an offender to my own point. i'm not mature enough to say no and not strong enough to push for something else. so maybe i think that i will push more for useful conversation with my friends. and def make an effort to hang out with more lost people. maybe some people at work. and i'm not against real fellowship, i desire it with my friends. but hanging out isn't fellowship. this is also the reason that i am against owning and doing certain things cause i believe that they bring us down and make us useless. these things being movies, tv, board games, poker, aim sometimes, the internet and some books even. i am completely for absolute renuciation of everything. i think it is biblical and would probably be good for everyone. part of this is a desire to be a old skool apostle that i have. to get rid of all else and pursue Christ alone. knowing and serving Him by being His witness. i think that is why i want to move to russia right now, cause i was doing kingdom work, even though i didn't actively share the gospel. i still want my times to be more productive, even though i know that they were a good start and i know that they will cause it will be more one on one stuff, which is bueno. but here at atm its so the christian bubble which we even make a big deal about getting out of, yet we don't do anything about it. again, pointing the finger at myself. hopefully this semester i can teach my upstream group about being productive with my time. the same with all my friends. cause sometimes i do enjoy just hanging out, but i want to pursue Christ more. so thats enough for tonight. suffice it to say, today was the best day for me in a at least a week, maybe all summer. i just don't know to many things about christianity. i can just hope to obey Christ is what i know to be right, and just listen for the rest.

so here's the quote, its another song. its called frontline and its from the new pillar cd.

"It’s not like I’m walking alone into the valley of the shadow of death
Stand beside one another, ‘cause it ain’t over yet
I’d be willing to bet that if we don’t back down
You and I will be the ones that are holding the Crown in the end
When it’s over, we can say, “Well done”
But not yet, ‘cause it’s only begun
So, pick up, and follow me, we’re the only ones
To fight this thing, until we’ve won
We drive on and don’t look back
It doesn’t mean we can’t learn from our past
All the things that we mighta done wrong
We could’ve been doing this all along
Everybody, with your fists raised high
Let me hear your battle cry tonight
Stand beside, or step aside
We’re on the frontline
And we’ll be carrying on, until the day it doesn’t matter anymore
Step aside, you forgot what this is for
We fight to live, we live to fight
And tonight, you’ll hear my battle cry
We live our lives on the frontlines
We’re not afraid of the fast times
These days have opened up my eyes
And now, I see where the threat lies
We’ve got to lead the way"

dosvidanya

me and alex
me and dasha

just one of those days

so i think that the roughest times are when we can't feel God's presence or hear His voice. these times shape us the most. showing us that our faith and love for Christ aren't based only on what we feel or emotions that we have. here, we get to the real meat of why we love Christ. and though i'm not entirely sure what it is, there is obviously something more. and i think it stems from what God has done for us and our remembrance of the fact that He always loves us, no matter what. hopefully this time will make us more desperate for Him, but instead too often we get caught up in other things instead of being self disciplined and continuing to obey, showing our love for Christ is not based on what we feel. if we will just shove away all those things that don't satisfy us, and continue to pursue Christ we will be obedient. and i think that God also does this to teach us to seek Him more. on another level perhaps. i just wish that i could really learn something from those times instead of just running away from everything and only half-heartedly seeking Him. to often we think that we only have to do what we desire not what we know we should. and i'm guilty of that for sure.

i think the one thing i want to do now is to know who God is. to seek Him and nothing else. cause i think that everything else will come after that. i don't want to seek how to be good or moral. i just want to know Jesus. and i pray that He will help me know Him and that He will reveal Himself to me. i really like CS Lewis's quote from Mere Christianity.

"I think all Christians would agree with me if I said that though Christianity seems at the first to be all about morality, all about duties and rules and guilt and virtue, yet it leads you on, out of all that, into something beyond. One has a glimpse of a country where they do not talk of those things, except perhaps as a joke. Everyone there is filled full with what we would call goodness as a mirror is filled with light. But they do not call it goodness. They do not call it anything. They are not thinking of it. They are too busy looking at the source from which it comes. But this is near the stage where the road passes over the rim of our world."

so thats a little of me today. really glad renucci and tres are back. good to hangout with those men again. they encourage me a lot. thanks fellas. good to have friends like that. i hope that i am the kind of friend who uplifts and encourages his friends. so mark if the fat kid thing is out, i'll stop. and big shoutout to g5 for being a totally cool upstream group. love yall. and i'll leave with the lyrics from demon hunter's Through the Black

"I've never been the type to turn my back and run.
It's just never appealed to me to be the same as everyone.
And when it comes to shove and I can't see you through the black,
I'm going to scream your name till you come back.
And every time I play with fire, I'm going to Burn, Burn, Burn until I learn.
And everytime I do it myself, I'm going to hate, hate, hate.
It's time to get it straight.

Chorus:
I bury sick side, I tear from the inside out,
I follow the downside, I'm waiting for something else.
I know that you'll be here and I'll be waiting.
I know that you'll be near and I'll be waiting.

I turn it back and question everything in sight.
It's like I try to fall again when everything is going right.
And everything that matters isn't everything in sight.
It's taking every bit of me to keep this all inside.
I've never been the type to turn my back and run.
It's just never appealed to me to be the same as everyone.
And when it comes to shove, and I can't see you through the black,
I'm going to scream your name till you come back.

Chorus:
I bury sick side, I tear from the inside out,
I follow the downside, I'm waiting for something else.
I know that you'll be here and I'll be waiting.
I know that youll be near and I'll be waiting.

Bridge:
Lost my mind and I've lost track,
gonna scream your name till you come back.
Scream your name, lost my mind

I know that you'll be here and I'll be waiting.
I know that you'll be near and I'll be waiting.(lost my mind), I'll be waiting.
I'll scream your name til you come back.

me and a cool russian
me and dasha

hey first post

so, everyone else has a blog, so i think that i too will join the carnage by putting different things down every couple of days. i think that i will try to be as open as possible and put down some things that i are kinda personal in regards to different things. so if i talk about you without mentioning names, so be it. i will not rag or hate on people ever, i promise. but i will try to put down parts of my life for others to peruse. so here goes.

i have just returned from russia a couple of weeks ago, and i now have a desire to move there. after college possibly. i really hope that the LORD will allow me to go back there many times and live there eventually. i enjoyed working with the people and the russians were freaking cool. yall better be emailing me. shameless plug. anyways, i too, along with select others from the trip are very sad about leaving and wish that we didn't have too. and i feel that pain, it may not show on my face but it is my heart. those who know me well know that my excitement about things is not shown on my face often. but i too wish to be back there. and i enjoyed working with the people from my class and getting to know them. and i hope the friendship will continue. and i also am sorry for the way that another relationship went. you know i still love you and that we are always good friends. and that i am always here for you. and for all my friends this is a true statement.

so i am hanging out here the week before school. not doing anything. playing ncaa 2005 with my roomies. yay for wasting time. loved impact though. good group of freshman and i am confident that the LORD answered my prayers for them for impact, even though i didn't see it. thanks to char char for helping my remember and believe that. i def appreciate it. gonna love hanging with o-gad freshman, please be calling yall. and of course love for my upstream groups, yall i know i dig yall majorly. love you guys and gals. anyways, enough for this one i think. but i will leave with a statement or quote or phrase or something that is me at the present time. so here it is, i wrote this one.

there is a love that is passed feelings and past emotions. it is a deeper more passionate love that is based on the promises of God and a knowledge of what He has done for us. a remembrance of our experiences with Him and the memory of our Savior's love on the cross. this love endures even when we don't feel Him at the present or don't know what is going on. this love reminds us that He always loves us, even when He is quiet and that because He first loved us, we love Him. this love results in our willing obedience to Him in all things at all times, despite circumstances.

peace.