keeping up with the times...

home now. the semester is over finally... no school, no work which is good, no bcs friends which is bad but some rockwall peeps which is good and gf (finally!) which is awesome. so i am def happy to be home. its great to really have no major committments in the school and work sense. that feeling of freedom to do whatever i want. its great. got back from utah where me and the father were skiing. loads of fun. solitude and snowbasin were amazing. i hope i get to ski there again some day. great trails plus lots of powder, essential to great skiing. had a good time but it just makes you miss home. and i did. so going home was great- family time, got to see ben and got me laptop which is awesome. and finally got to see char which was good. hard times for her but i'm learning how to be a boyfriend. its amazingly hard, which i cant say i knew beforehand. but we are learning and working through things. so things are good. need to learn to not be scared of whats might happen and what is going on. to be there for her, to meet her needs and for us to relax and enjoy each other. to be honest and to try to do what i think/know i should. and to not worry or be scared. huge i think. but i am happy, fo sho. liking the har and the cd, point 5 covenant is amazing. ben's party tonight. drink some different brews of sam adams i haven't had before, so thats fun. hopefully no one will be too trashed but it should still be fun. also hope that game wont turn out badly... but i will be pleased to see all the old friends. good times i'm sure. want to go rap something so maybe another post will appear in a bit, just have to see. don't even know what i want to rap about but we'll see... i also decided yesterday that epic fantasy books are my favorites. the wheel of time, the dark tower, LOTR, narnia, all just amazing. almost done with the tower and just started the wheel of time. lovin it. also brings me back to the song by p5c called axis. great line "the cross is the axis on which the world spins." goes great with my epic fantasy books... lovin it. here's a quote from the beginning of the gunslinger, book 1 of the dark tower series.

"The man in black fled across the desert, and the gunslinger followed."

i officially wish i was a writer now. peace yall.

our God is rich in mercy
His ways and paths are true
for me this is a surety
after all He's led me through

He brought to my attention
this thing i say i know
but now with comprehension
along my trek i go

with happiness and cheer
a new sight before my eyes
not seeing in my mirror
reflections of the devil's lies

these things i now remember
when i sing His praise
happy that this defender
will protect me all my days

one of the other things that God has taught me this semster is about His mercy. He has really made it apparent and impacted my view of Him with it and for that i am quite grateful. not seeing Him as an overlord but someone who is merciful and loving and yet still pushing us onto perfection is a much better view. the knowledge that everything doesn't have to be "perfectly right" or even "right" at all sometimes for God to manifest Himself or to do amazing things blows my mind. i can't believe it. but i know it is true. i am dating someone now, who6p! "third times the charm." lol. its char again, so thats been good. hard because of the distance thing, but i have had people remind me that all our talking is building a good foundation for a relationship which i agree with, i just currently miss the combined interaction with others but next semester when we are visiting each other it will be there. not just us when we see each other. def a good thing. i believe things to be on the upward slope for my walk, back to where i need to be, finally recovering from the consequences of my summer's decisions. for that i am also grateful. as well as for truly being involved in things again, my church and my job, to a lesser degree though. happy happy am i. however i need a quote to leave you with, so here goes. this is 1 peter 1:3-5 ESV:

"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God's power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time."