so i haven't blogged in awhile, my bad

so heres a quick rehash of everything you missed in the last three weeks cause i didn't post cause i was either busy or lazy. hummm.

there is a girl... whom david likes. went on a date... it was good. spending lots of time with her cause shes awesome. prolly going to ask her to be my gf. (that last part is a secret which of course i feel totally comfortable putting cause no one reads this thing anyways). but yeah. actually that is partly accurate. paige has been the person i've been hanging with and thinking about and pursuing recently. so thats coo fo sho. our second date will be the drive in movie theater out by ennis this friday in which david will prolly ask her so its official. ( another freebie for ya)

so thats prolly about half of my existence recently. otherwise i took lots of tests, did ok. just class (take finger, swirl it around in the air) got new cds. dead poetic, underoath and anberlin. quality, all of them. you should all listen to them. new medicines, they are only chasing safety and blueprints for the blackmarket respectively. also been reading cause it was spring break and i did absolutely nothing which was great. books: angels and demons by dan brown, state of fear by michael crichton, the screwtape letters by cs lewis. all quite good. watched dune, spirited away and the incredibles over the break, plus loads of college basketball. and of course my bracket is lame, sick and dying, just like it always in. but i can' t complain too bad, my two final teams are still in it and i have a new favorite team. the west virginia mountaineers. whoop. plus atm is playing in the sweet sixteen of the nit, also a big whoop. i'll be there wednesday. throw it down boys. off this week, nothing crazy going on. looking for a house, doing some degree stuff cause they messed up on one part, but no biggie. should be a good week.

kinda distracted today, hope it doesn't continue but if its only til friday, i'll deal with it, i guess i can take it. things are still more or less the same that they have been? actually the people around would prolly say opposite. i'm not depressive anymore (thanks to paige? def in part) and things are better. good call char on the not noticing while God changes things in me. good call for sure. so thats coo. still dry to a degree but i did gain some more insight plus encouragement from mr cs lewis. and i am still being convicted about things, just gotta keep it seperate from condemnation and trust in the LORD to change me into His likeness. start russia stuff soon. whoop! headed back in the middle of june i believe, be there two months, so funds would be fantastic if yall can swing em. appreciate.

i guess the only bad thing now is the thing that has always seemed to be going badly recently (the last year). i just don't understand myself sometimes or what or why i keep messing stuff up so it goes badly. i mean i was a jerk and i understand that and why i did what i did. but it just keeps going to crap and in ways that i don't even see or understand and it just irks me really badly. but God willing this will get worked out again. i think being honest with myself will help, but i'm afraid its too late this time. i just don't know. have to see i guess.

hummmm. quote, so many possibles. incredibles, music, verse. i can't decide. so maybe one of each.

"hey kids, this is thunderhead. i didn't graduate so don't be like me. wait a minute... thats no good. just aim high, thunderhead believes in you..." thunderhead audio file from the incredibles extras dvd

"Do we have the time to lay the line between true life, and you in mine.
I want to reel it back before the day when simplicity was washed away.

chorus:
Like modern morbid prophecies fulfilled.
Like biting on these bitter tasting pills.
And we're just heroes, And we're just heroes.
For the day.

There's a silent urge to leave this cloud when all I want is to hear the sound,
Of your voice devoid of the constant noise, the only sound to fill this void.
And do you want this. And do you still need this.

(chorus)

They all won't love me, she won't let me forget.

modern morbid prophecies, dead poetic.

"I will surely assemble all of you, Jacob,
I will surely gather the remnant of Israel.
I will put them together like sheep in the fold;
Like a flock in the midst of its pasture
They will be noisy with men.
¹³"The breaker goes up before them;
They break out, pass through the gate and go out by it.
So their king goes on before them,
And the LORD at their head."

micah 2:12-13

peace