home sweet home

so, i made it home finally. good ole 4hrs drive from h-town, gettin back in at about 230am. good times. glad to be here. its going to be awesome. hard still, but sweet. folks is good, friends is good. whoop. yay for good talks with people you love. eat it up.

so i feel it necessary to explain a little of my last blog entry. those verses in that order is what i have felt in the last two weeks. there was a method to that list, i promise.

thinking a lot about spiritual warfare stuff recently. saw the trailer for constantine to the new keanu reeves movie, and wonder if it is like that to a degree. because obviously we don't see things with a spiritual perspective or else we'd act way different. so, the question becomes what does it look like? i was working outside today thinking about that. listening to demonhunter, i just this image of like packs of angels and demons roaming about the earth affecting the day to day workings of people's lives. the angels are enpowered by the will of God for the good of the saints and the elect (hebrews 1:14) and to bring answers to prayers (daniel 10:10-15). and i see them looking like the angel (Tyrael) from diablo II. i'll post a pic for yall. its def sweet looking though. just so cool sounding. i can see em warring in the streets because of our prayers and petitions. bustin out swords kinda like in underworld. for the purpose of keepin us safe, to bring the knowledge of the truth, and to give glory to our King. i guess i want to see with those spiritual eyes so i can see how to pray so that peoples lives are impacted and changed forever. so that Jesus' name will be spread and His Spirit will rock people's worlds. but it absolutely scares the junk outta me too yah know? cause after that, there ain't no going back. can't keep being selfish then, or pursuing my own pleasures, gotta run for Him. which is want i want inside, but the dead me that i keep holding on to skews my vision. and facing demons, man thats creepy. like that passage from jude about michael disputing over moses body. that'd be a scary thing. but you suit up everyday and you be aight. ephesians 6 baby, you all know it, but that stuffs fo real. ain't nothing figurative about that, you need to put it on. we talk about it in this semi-real aspect and we make some small time comment about praying being at the end of the list. and then nothing happens. this ain't no joking about small time list yo. this is the real deal. like, we should be throwing this stuff down. or else we'll be hurting for certain and not being effective for the kingdom. cause its spreading, with or without us, but i want to be apart of it. so i'll prolly go see constantine for that reason, even though i'm sure theologically i'm not going to buy a lot of it, but just for the reminder yah dig?

sweet action. aight heres your quote from the demonhunter song i was listenin to. peace.


Artist: Demon Hunter
Album: Summer Of Darkness
Song:Less Than Nothing

I suffocate.
Reality is tearing my life away.
All in vain.
I'm taking my pride into the grave.

What a fine line we walk with our eyes closed.
Giving our worst as first like we don't know.
Burning my way through life with a vengeance
Giving my weight in hate until the neck bends
Tearing out every trace of emotion
Falling into this cell that you've opened
Hollow as all these faces around me
Feeling your fatal infection surround me.

CHORUS:
We all live in fear of something.
We all disappear like nothing.
We all live in fear of something.
We all equal less than nothing.

I suffocate.
I'm taking my life from first to last.
All this hate is dragging my face through broken glass.

How can we be so blind in the same light?
Covering all these scars that we can't hide.
Feeling my way through thorns of rejection.
Bleeding out all this filth of infection.

(CHORUS)

Nothing.
Nothing.
We're nothing.
Nothing.